Augusta 70.3

October 1, 2019

It’s been nearly 4 months since I’ve written a race report, and I will have to wait a little longer to get to write about racing.  I went to Augusta, GA this weekend with full intentions of racing my first triathlon since my Mother's passing on July 4.  I had done an open water swim race and a 5 mile road race in July and August to help reintroduce myself to racing.  Jarrod has done a wonderful job of getting me back into shape. My body hasn't been perfect; I've been managing a very old SI niggle that flared up in late August and early September.  I haven't quite managed to get my usual training volume back up, but it's been pretty good.  However, with all of that being said, I still felt like I could do it, that I was ready, not perfect, but ready to just do my best.  

 

I went through all my usual pre-race routines.  I had studied the course, my bike was tuned to perfection and checked into transition the day before, all my gear was laid out in my hotel room.  I had an open heart and mind and felt no judgment or expectation of what would happen; all of that changed the night before the race.  We went to bed and I was overcome with anxiety.  Long story short, I barely slept and woke up feeling very unwell.  I was not mentally ready to race.  I was not in the right mental state to compete, let alone participate. After a long discussion with Jarrod I made the difficult decision to not race.  I was relieved as soon as I made that call which is how I knew it was the right decision.  Jarrod and I drove to transition, and I picked up my bike. It was the strangest feeling, to be at a race and choosing to walk away from it.  But I knew, to the core of my body that I was making the right decision.  

 

 

I am not embarrassed or disappointed in myself, I wasn't ready to race yet.  I do not regret my decision to go to Augusta, I needed to try and now I know where I’m at.  In just a few days, it will have been 3 months since my Mom passed. I wasn't sure if I would be able to return to racing after she died, but I want to keep an open mind to it.  This weekend showed me that I need more time.  I won't attempt to race a triathlon again until Challenge Daytona this December.  Right now, I’m emotionally exhausted.  Time to press reset, do some more healing and continue to build on the training I’ve been doing.  

 

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